MOM SURE LOVED TO QUILT AND TODAY SHE WAS WITH ME WHEN I PRESENTED A QUILT TO THE TOWSE FAMILY! MOM SURE LOVED THESE QUILTS AND WAS GOING TO MAKE ONE WITH ME BUT ALAS TIME RAN AWAY FROM US...
MOM IS SO PROUD OF THEM AND SHE COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT I WAS DOING WITH THE TALENT SHE TAUGHT ME ...
MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS HAPPY I PICKED UP HER LOVE FOR IT AND THAT I RAN WITH MY IDEAS AND THAT I INSPIRED MY AUNT TO DESIGN SOME OF HER OWN AND SHE IS LOVING IT TOO... TODAY I FEEL AMAZING AND I FEEL MOM NEAR
TOMORROW IS SEPT 1 AND I AM GOING TO GO CLEAN OUT HER SEWING ROOM AND BRING HER THINGS HOME I AM EXCITED TO DO IT AND A BIT NERVOUS LIKE I AM RUMMAGING THRU HER THINGS AT THE SAME TIME BUT I ALREADY KNOW WHAT I AM SUPPOSE TO DO AND WHAT SHE WANTED ME TO DO......
I LOVE YOU MOM TOMORROW WILL BE TOUGH BUT I KNOW YOUR THERE WITH ME I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU BUT I AM OK I WILL BE OK AND DUSTIN AND JULIE AND KEVIN AND AND KAYLA ALL ALL THE GREAT GRAND KIDS MISS YOU TOO
LOVING YOU ALWAYS JAN- JAN MUAH!!!! FOREVER IN MY HEART AND SOUL MOM!
PS I KNOW YOU HATED MY TATS BUT I AM GETTING A NEW ONE AND IT IN MEMORY OF YOU AND I HOPE YOU LIKE IT
I KNOW I WILL
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Saturday, August 31, 2013
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Today I know I am strong!
Today I am strong because, of my mother. she came last night to be with me I felt her near as a binded one of my purple heart quilts, she loved them so much you know and she was proud of them.
Mom was there telling me i would be ok and she was there to help me threw my heart ache I did wake feeling much better then i have in weeks thank you mom...
Mom loved to sew as much as fishing. My kids and I were talking about the last few times we went with grandma and she just seemed to fade into the river and the sounds around us she seemed to be somewhere else. yes we noticed and I felt mom slipping away a few weeks before that day. but this day was a beautiful day she was with us and was truly having a great time. she made me promise her so many things and so far i have managed to keep them all. A PROMISE IS A PROMISE IN MY BOOK YOU DON'T EVER BREAK THEM NOT EVER!!!
I promised that I would make sure the boys were taken care of and that her needs were met to the fullest of what she asked. me to do. I got that all done. many other promises were to always love Kevin and to never leave him she loved Kevin ( my husband of 15 years) she loved how he treated her with the respect she deserved and in some ways she loved him more than she could ever say. as for the promises to my children i have kept them all and will continue to keep them those are more private and will keep them to myself. mom also made me promise that i would be as strong as i could and that one day we would be together again and that she loved me and was glad we spent and spend so much time together she told me how proud of me she was and how much she truely was happy for me and so glad i was here for her over these last few years.
From our conversation i knew in my heart mom was giving up but i did my best to try and keep her here i wasn't done having her in my life and neither was my kids and hubby.
in January of this year (2013) mom told me she was done and wanted to go be with her parents and she hated being a burden on the family i told her a million times over she could never be a burden that i loved to take care of her it was my job since she took care of me to adult hood she still hated it !!
It was then when I told Kevin MOM IS GOING TO LEAVE ME THIS YEAR !!! I CAN FEEL IT COMING !!! he said ya i think so too but i new more then think i KNEW in my HEART she was going to leave me leave us all. I held on so tightly maybe too tightly......
mom loved our walks and talks and our fishing days and especially our sewing days with her sister Saima we three were a crazy bunch we baked together and sewed and fished together...
These are the days i miss the most and will always miss... it just isn't the same with out her..... time will heal and my heart will one day heal too I just wish i had more time with my mom and i soooo totally understand her reasons for leaving us all the way she did and i respect her decision i just wish she would have given us a chance to say I love you and miss you and all that one more time!! what i wouldn't give to hear her voice and tell her just how much i love her how much we all love her....
So here I say MOM I LOVE YOU!!!!! I MISS YOU AND I UNDERSTAND!!!
IT IS HARD ON ME BUT I WILL GET THREW THIS PART OF LIFE AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT YOU TAUGHT ME AND TOLD ME MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH XOXOX JAN...( NETTA)
so in close remember to tell your mom how much you love her cause one day when your wakened from a nap you may find her gone as i did....... shocked and stunned missing her always netta
LOVE YOUR MOM TELL YOUR DAILY!!!!
Mom was there telling me i would be ok and she was there to help me threw my heart ache I did wake feeling much better then i have in weeks thank you mom...
Mom loved to sew as much as fishing. My kids and I were talking about the last few times we went with grandma and she just seemed to fade into the river and the sounds around us she seemed to be somewhere else. yes we noticed and I felt mom slipping away a few weeks before that day. but this day was a beautiful day she was with us and was truly having a great time. she made me promise her so many things and so far i have managed to keep them all. A PROMISE IS A PROMISE IN MY BOOK YOU DON'T EVER BREAK THEM NOT EVER!!!
I promised that I would make sure the boys were taken care of and that her needs were met to the fullest of what she asked. me to do. I got that all done. many other promises were to always love Kevin and to never leave him she loved Kevin ( my husband of 15 years) she loved how he treated her with the respect she deserved and in some ways she loved him more than she could ever say. as for the promises to my children i have kept them all and will continue to keep them those are more private and will keep them to myself. mom also made me promise that i would be as strong as i could and that one day we would be together again and that she loved me and was glad we spent and spend so much time together she told me how proud of me she was and how much she truely was happy for me and so glad i was here for her over these last few years.
From our conversation i knew in my heart mom was giving up but i did my best to try and keep her here i wasn't done having her in my life and neither was my kids and hubby.
in January of this year (2013) mom told me she was done and wanted to go be with her parents and she hated being a burden on the family i told her a million times over she could never be a burden that i loved to take care of her it was my job since she took care of me to adult hood she still hated it !!
It was then when I told Kevin MOM IS GOING TO LEAVE ME THIS YEAR !!! I CAN FEEL IT COMING !!! he said ya i think so too but i new more then think i KNEW in my HEART she was going to leave me leave us all. I held on so tightly maybe too tightly......
mom loved our walks and talks and our fishing days and especially our sewing days with her sister Saima we three were a crazy bunch we baked together and sewed and fished together...
These are the days i miss the most and will always miss... it just isn't the same with out her..... time will heal and my heart will one day heal too I just wish i had more time with my mom and i soooo totally understand her reasons for leaving us all the way she did and i respect her decision i just wish she would have given us a chance to say I love you and miss you and all that one more time!! what i wouldn't give to hear her voice and tell her just how much i love her how much we all love her....
So here I say MOM I LOVE YOU!!!!! I MISS YOU AND I UNDERSTAND!!!
IT IS HARD ON ME BUT I WILL GET THREW THIS PART OF LIFE AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT YOU TAUGHT ME AND TOLD ME MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH XOXOX JAN...( NETTA)
so in close remember to tell your mom how much you love her cause one day when your wakened from a nap you may find her gone as i did....... shocked and stunned missing her always netta
LOVE YOUR MOM TELL YOUR DAILY!!!!
Sunday, August 18, 2013
In memory of mom!! a blog i wish to continue i think it will help me heal.
Well its August 2013 on July 24th mom past away very suddenly and my world has been turned upside down but i will heal in time. Her love of quilting will keep me going it lives inside me and my daughter i think is beginning to get the bug of quilting. Mom would be excited!
Everyday i miss her i try to think of her everyday and keep her close to me.
I want to keep this blog going in memory of my mom the most amazing mom ever!! she taught me so much and i want to share it will all. Quilting was a way of getting families together here in my home my husband and kids all helped mom work on various projects and we and her sister saima would all sit and quilt even my cousin Tammy got in on it once in a while I hope that my children will remember all the quilts we did with her i have more then enough pics of us doing it!
Mom was an amazing hand appliquer and i am still trying to be as good as here practice practice!! she would say then giggle at me knowing full well i wouldn't be able to be as good as her she had an amazing talent i could never touch but come pretty dam close at times. Mom showed me how to quilt when i was 5 years old mom and grandma Janetta (my name sake) would teach me something new everyday and i would sit and try and try till one day i just got it and it remember very vividly grandma saying time to go to the sewing shop to get you a real project! I still have it bambi! sampler it is in my hope chest half done!
One day i will put it out and complete it! hand embroidery i learned at 5 and 6 years old. had fun!
then grandma would let us quilt with her no matter our stitch size she left them in. use to sit under the quilts and play with all the wooden spools too that were left over from all the quilts. or play with my dolls and all of grandma scraps. quilting was and is a way of life for my family and i dont see it going anywhere but further soon my granddaughter will be old enough to teach so a mom can hope to keep the hand quilting going.
mom you left a giant whole in my heart but i promise to keep you in my heart and mind everyday! I promise to keep quilting and fishing in our family!!! thank you for teaching me all you did and i wish i had told you but i think you already new since my house looks more like a sewing shop then a home i thank you mom for all the wonder memories we have sewing in my home! and the videos may be short but the memories are there and are strong! miss you always! your loving daughter and best friend janetta
I miss our walks too!!
Everyday i miss her i try to think of her everyday and keep her close to me.
I want to keep this blog going in memory of my mom the most amazing mom ever!! she taught me so much and i want to share it will all. Quilting was a way of getting families together here in my home my husband and kids all helped mom work on various projects and we and her sister saima would all sit and quilt even my cousin Tammy got in on it once in a while I hope that my children will remember all the quilts we did with her i have more then enough pics of us doing it!
Mom was an amazing hand appliquer and i am still trying to be as good as here practice practice!! she would say then giggle at me knowing full well i wouldn't be able to be as good as her she had an amazing talent i could never touch but come pretty dam close at times. Mom showed me how to quilt when i was 5 years old mom and grandma Janetta (my name sake) would teach me something new everyday and i would sit and try and try till one day i just got it and it remember very vividly grandma saying time to go to the sewing shop to get you a real project! I still have it bambi! sampler it is in my hope chest half done!
One day i will put it out and complete it! hand embroidery i learned at 5 and 6 years old. had fun!
then grandma would let us quilt with her no matter our stitch size she left them in. use to sit under the quilts and play with all the wooden spools too that were left over from all the quilts. or play with my dolls and all of grandma scraps. quilting was and is a way of life for my family and i dont see it going anywhere but further soon my granddaughter will be old enough to teach so a mom can hope to keep the hand quilting going.
mom you left a giant whole in my heart but i promise to keep you in my heart and mind everyday! I promise to keep quilting and fishing in our family!!! thank you for teaching me all you did and i wish i had told you but i think you already new since my house looks more like a sewing shop then a home i thank you mom for all the wonder memories we have sewing in my home! and the videos may be short but the memories are there and are strong! miss you always! your loving daughter and best friend janetta
I miss our walks too!!
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